bonjing’s blues
hello world, what do you think. a simple case of mid life crisis? or just plain lonely? i seriously think its just plain fetish… i dont know … u judge….
bonjing: muwah back , really raining nice i wish i was there i like rain , and staying in bed have breakfast and you
louie: bed and breakfast
louie: sweet
bonjing: and you
bonjing: that more sweet
louie: lol
louie: makes me want to invent some sickness
louie: so i can go home
bonjing: noy now wait till im there and we do the rain dance so we have extra rain just in case its stop raining
bonjing: how you feeling today babe , hope you are much better
louie: rain dance … with head dress and diapers?
louie: cool
bonjing: lol ahahahahhahahah
louie: yeah slept early last night
louie: i tried to get online
louie: but i dont know,
louie: dont laugh at me
louie: im a dummy on wireless settings
louie: so i couldnt use the laptop
bonjing: its normal we all have some brain freez somtime
louie: some connections get lost when i take it to other place
louie: either that or etisalat has found out weve been
louie: hacking
louie: a lot of signals
bonjing: i had same problem here , bad and slow connection get me fud up somtime , besid i only have the pc to relax , whil i have mum crying from pain and dad caughing
louie: sounds like home to me
louie: i think i had that picture in mind
bonjing: indeed , home with me as nurse betty i call myself that now
louie: must have been really tough
louie: nanny with an accent
louie: and a lot of attitude
bonjing: i dont know what to tell you , it seem ill never ever have a chance to have rest
louie: cause you dont allow urself some
bonjing: i wish , the day i tried i becom the selfish son
louie: not selfish
louie: u just give urself some break some time
louie: thats all
bonjing: its too much going on , i feel so low and lost i cant do somthing without somone getting angry , i just keep quiet better
louie: hmm
louie: wt can i do to make it better
louie: same old hassan
louie: when it gets too much, cnt pull back
bonjing: i want to go cyprus , change my shop from communication to cafe and sit there with shisha and short , have my bely half shown and grow my hair long and change my name to stavros
louie: was it you who told me you cant please them all
louie: what does stavros mean
bonjing: hassan
bonjing: i think
louie: cool
bonjing: that will be given my self a break
louie: you wanna go with me march? philippines?
louie: what about your partner the one you introduce to teresa
louie: but in greece it cold these season..
louie: its freaking cold
bonjing: march im in hannover 5 till 15 CEBIT exhbition, my partner is in cyprus his wife found out his plying and she divoring him, he was having it with 19 old student, and she get pregnant, what a luck
louie: aww
louie: 19 is hot
louie: thats all i can say
bonjing: well , i dont know about that i never had 19 in my life the first ever lady was 30 whne i was 19
louie: thats a treat too,
louie: opened up a holw world for you
louie: its a mazing u did not marry him
bonjing: him,
louie: her sorry
bonjing: that better , i was worried for a moment
bonjing: she looked like a man
bonjing: and she made me do it all day till i couldnt walk any moreand all in empty stomck
louie: all day?
bonjing: yep all day , i remember 10 to 12 time then i stayed home few weeks recovereing
bonjing: and i hated sex and woman
louie: lol, quite a scandal
louie: she squeezed the life out of you
bonjing: i was 19 only fresh and young
bonjing: and that was going on for almost one month till her husband came back from kuwait and tok her with him , then i went back to porn movie ahahahahah
louie: lol
louie: tragic
bonjing: yeh tragic, but what can i say the only thing i didnt do is making any body pregnant yet and i wish i can
louie: alright back to the rain
bonjing: rain rain and rain in dubai cool
louie: i seriously wonder after all these years you were still thinking of having a child.
louie: you dismissed the whhole thing back then, told me its not fair to bring a child into these world
louie: when you couldnt provide what they deserve
bonjing: yes but i come to a conclusion , having a babe will at least give me hope that i did somthing before i die
louie: hassan you have proven yourself worthy in the eyes of your family.
louie: you gave up everything for your own
bonjing: yes but family fade away what will happend whne i m old and lonely
louie: i dont want you thinking that way, for what its worth God is smiling on you when you have chosen to take care of your family
louie: and dont go thinking you were alone, they say everybody deserves someone, like a witness
louie: a witness to your life, your existence
louie: you have paid a high price, but theres nothing wrong with that…
bonjing: hmmm maybe that why im stuck but i have to be like that , its realy a bless to be there for your family
louie: hassan, you have a personality where you push ur way somewhere u wanna go and will not stop till you reach.
louie: and when you reach you ask urself
louie: ur clueless
louie: like a commuter on the rush, pushing himself to get there ahead of others, angry at anyone who stops him, and when he reach he ask himself, whats the rush
bonjing: yes you said it im clulesssssss
louie: ok ill tell you the truth
bonjing: yes
louie: you see maybe you had this impression im not listening to you but i do
louie: one time you were complaining about your sister – one of them
louie: ok a
louie: i think we were there when she was away
louie: with friends
louie: you offered to keep her in the flat
louie: after some brawl with a roomate or soemthing and told me she could do the chores
louie: and its getting to irritate you that it made you think why you offered it at the first place..
louie: after you decide on one thin
louie: you change your mind after
louie: have u evert hought how i would feel if that happens to me if i decide to have the baby?
louie: ill be the one who gets stuck
bonjing: im sure you will babe need 2 poeple and a home
louie: i gurantee there will be bad times
louie: but you were so used at seeing things perfect
louie: that when the bad time comes, i dont want you telling me youre stuck
bonjing: yehhhh, that what im worried about , i dont know any more
bonjing: what do i want
louie: you managed well enough on your own and you know more than i you cant live with anyone….
bonjing: im a difficult man my mary i hated somtime why im so edgy and want to run alwys may be i m not stable and affraid
louie: what im afraid of is when you come to me and i could pacify you when that happens
louie: i mean i couldnot
louie: do that all the time
louie: sometimes i dont have answers to your questions
louie: they say what makes a man is entirely his own doing
louie: women has got nothing to do with it
bonjing: babe i think you done a lot to me and i really want to see you face to face and we will have time to talk about lots of things together i miss you lots and ill send you all my love n kisses…
12:26 pm 15 jan 2009
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