worth smiling…
archicving the kind words of a distant friend who took time to make me sleep. 06 jan 2009
Focus Focus: why 3 days no sleep
Focus Focus: ?
louie: not enough
Focus Focus: i dont want u to kill yourself ………….. plz
louie: my eyes look terrible
Focus Focus: i know, u really should sleep
louie: what should i do
Focus Focus: sleep / relax
louie: easy to say b
Focus Focus: ?
louie: not enough
Focus Focus: i dont want u to kill yourself ………….. plz
louie: my eyes look terrible
Focus Focus: i know, u really should sleep
louie: what should i do
Focus Focus: sleep / relax
louie: easy to say b
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Focus Focus: i know its easy to say, but you should try
Focus Focus: how can i help u ?
louie: really i dnt knwo
Focus Focus: im really really sorry for that,
Focus Focus: do you keep thinking of something makes u awake ?
louie: i try not to
louie: thinking kills
Focus Focus: yes, so that measn u thinking ?
louie: cant help it
Focus Focus: I know, u still thinking of him……..
louie: i have 15 movies in 1 cd
louie: not even finished one
louie: and already im bored
Focus Focus: waht about music ?
louie: there was one time i really wanted to sleep
louie: and that was when i was inside the church
louie: bad huh?
Focus Focus: ok.
Focus Focus: no, u can sleep anytime u want ,,,
louie: and im not supposed to…
Focus Focus: i know, but u really have to do something different,
Focus Focus: take ur attention away of what keep you awake
Focus Focus: did u try to drink all evenning, so by 10 PM ur so drunk and sleep…
louie: i cnt sleep that way every night
louie: ill drain myself
Focus Focus: what u thinking of ?
louie: him
Focus Focus: i know… i was afraid u did,
Focus Focus: but you know the situation more than me,….
louie: the trouble is we havent had a real talk
Focus Focus: and u r the only one can handle it, unless u need help
louie: it just died a natural death
Focus Focus: dont blame yourself about it,
Focus Focus: bcz if he feels the same as you, so you both should be together again…
louie: it should have ended long time back
Focus Focus: maybe, so if u think so, then end it now \
louie: nobody pat me at the back
louie: nobody told me that i did my best
louie: to him it wasnt good enough
Focus Focus: listen……..
Focus Focus: how can i help u ?
louie: really i dnt knwo
Focus Focus: im really really sorry for that,
Focus Focus: do you keep thinking of something makes u awake ?
louie: i try not to
louie: thinking kills
Focus Focus: yes, so that measn u thinking ?
louie: cant help it
Focus Focus: I know, u still thinking of him……..
louie: i have 15 movies in 1 cd
louie: not even finished one
louie: and already im bored
Focus Focus: waht about music ?
louie: there was one time i really wanted to sleep
louie: and that was when i was inside the church
louie: bad huh?
Focus Focus: ok.
Focus Focus: no, u can sleep anytime u want ,,,
louie: and im not supposed to…
Focus Focus: i know, but u really have to do something different,
Focus Focus: take ur attention away of what keep you awake
Focus Focus: did u try to drink all evenning, so by 10 PM ur so drunk and sleep…
louie: i cnt sleep that way every night
louie: ill drain myself
Focus Focus: what u thinking of ?
louie: him
Focus Focus: i know… i was afraid u did,
Focus Focus: but you know the situation more than me,….
louie: the trouble is we havent had a real talk
Focus Focus: and u r the only one can handle it, unless u need help
louie: it just died a natural death
Focus Focus: dont blame yourself about it,
Focus Focus: bcz if he feels the same as you, so you both should be together again…
louie: it should have ended long time back
Focus Focus: maybe, so if u think so, then end it now \
louie: nobody pat me at the back
louie: nobody told me that i did my best
louie: to him it wasnt good enough
Focus Focus: listen……..
Focus Focus: let me say something,
Focus Focus: you believe that you did ur best or not ?
louie: i did everyone knows i did
Focus Focus: forgot about anyone
louie: i even forget myself
Focus Focus: you beleive yourself did the best or not ?
louie: and what i deserve
Focus Focus: you deserve to be proud of yourself, and not blame yourself, that makes you not guilty at all.,
Focus Focus: if he ignored all this so , its his mistake not yours, that makes you proud… and he is ashamed…
Focus Focus: plz give me a break.,….
louie: hmm
Focus Focus: you deserve to be with someone appreciate you, if he does not appreciate you, so fuck it off. (Sorry)
Focus Focus: you should know your value.
louie: yeah
Focus Focus: and if someone did not evaluate you the way you are, just give him the finger even he is the king….
louie:
Focus Focus: you know what i mean /?
louie: i never say that word even
Focus Focus: why you put yourseld in sadness and upset yourself ?
Focus Focus: i know , you are polite, but i tell you what you should act toward this,,
Focus Focus: if this man ignored you for months, then give him the finger, and go on with your life even single and alone,
louie: yeah
Focus Focus: you can be very happy alone, than be with someone makes you miserable……
Focus Focus: I know this and i have been through it, when my girl left me for stupid American George Bush dream, I didnt look at her ever again, bcz i know she left me for cheap thing
louie: really
Focus Focus: and since then i live proud of myself bcz I have not done this mistake, it was her mistake, and maybe she is regrettting it now, but it is too late….
louie: what is it about people
Focus Focus: look at yourself and you know your value, so next time you will let yourseld for someone who really deserve you…. Full STOP…
Focus Focus: people should be in your shoes..
Focus Focus: think about yourself,
Focus Focus: people never been happy with anything, girl…..
Focus Focus: even your frineds or what so ever,,,, they envy you when you are happy, and they run away from you when you are miserable….
louie: gosh
Focus Focus: oh girl , just listen to me, and take what im saying for granted
Focus Focus: you only think about yourself and yourseld then yourself , then your family….
louie: someday i when im fully recovered i will just think about this and laugh about it
Focus Focus: no im not telling you jokes to laught about, im telling you truth from the life experince /,,,,
Focus Focus: im not making fun here, i know your situation and feel it deeply as you did, and I give you my advise, you take it or, make it as a laugh ,,,, its all up to u
louie: no i didnt mean laugh at what u said
louie: i mean laugh at what imgoing through now
Focus Focus: ok, i hope you believe what im telling u,
louie: yeah at the back of my mind i knw i deserve better
Focus Focus: oh …. girl….. you are so goegeous and you really deserve to be a queen.. you just didnot meet the person who can evaluate you yet, so its not your fault..
louie: its just a bit lonesome
Focus Focus: you should be proud of yourself….. that is it. even you live alone the rest of your life,
Focus Focus: the same thing happen to me, and im still alone, never wanted to be involved again after what she did,
louie: hmm
Focus Focus: but im sure one day, as long as im proud of myself, the right girl will come and insist to be with me,
louie: maybe she will come back
Focus Focus: NO never again, if she comes back, i will turn her down….
louie: u still sound bitter
Focus Focus: listen, i just hate this, she left for no reason,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Focus Focus: immigration to USA is not the best thing, but she left everythig behind and she is now living her dream, so let it be, but she will never get this love again…. she also regret it,
Focus Focus: listen girl… as long as you did not made any mistake, so you never feel guilty, ok ? agree…
louie: yeah
Focus Focus: so think always from this point and you will be feeling happy even if you are alone,
Focus Focus: believe me………. one day the right man will come and see how you are proud of yourself, and he will insist to be with you forever….
louie: ok
Focus Focus: but the men who will see u proud and nosey, they will never try with you bcz they know , they will not go anywhere with,
Focus Focus: but one man only will insist and try his best to win you, so this will be your man….
Focus Focus: i hope you got my point..
louie: yeah
Focus Focus: i hope what i say, make things better for u, and make u understand this stupid world of men,
Focus Focus: you believe that you did ur best or not ?
louie: i did everyone knows i did
Focus Focus: forgot about anyone
louie: i even forget myself
Focus Focus: you beleive yourself did the best or not ?
louie: and what i deserve
Focus Focus: you deserve to be proud of yourself, and not blame yourself, that makes you not guilty at all.,
Focus Focus: if he ignored all this so , its his mistake not yours, that makes you proud… and he is ashamed…
Focus Focus: plz give me a break.,….
louie: hmm
Focus Focus: you deserve to be with someone appreciate you, if he does not appreciate you, so fuck it off. (Sorry)
Focus Focus: you should know your value.
louie: yeah
Focus Focus: and if someone did not evaluate you the way you are, just give him the finger even he is the king….
louie:
Focus Focus: you know what i mean /?
louie: i never say that word even
Focus Focus: why you put yourseld in sadness and upset yourself ?
Focus Focus: i know , you are polite, but i tell you what you should act toward this,,
Focus Focus: if this man ignored you for months, then give him the finger, and go on with your life even single and alone,
louie: yeah
Focus Focus: you can be very happy alone, than be with someone makes you miserable……
Focus Focus: I know this and i have been through it, when my girl left me for stupid American George Bush dream, I didnt look at her ever again, bcz i know she left me for cheap thing
louie: really
Focus Focus: and since then i live proud of myself bcz I have not done this mistake, it was her mistake, and maybe she is regrettting it now, but it is too late….
louie: what is it about people
Focus Focus: look at yourself and you know your value, so next time you will let yourseld for someone who really deserve you…. Full STOP…
Focus Focus: people should be in your shoes..
Focus Focus: think about yourself,
Focus Focus: people never been happy with anything, girl…..
Focus Focus: even your frineds or what so ever,,,, they envy you when you are happy, and they run away from you when you are miserable….
louie: gosh
Focus Focus: oh girl , just listen to me, and take what im saying for granted
Focus Focus: you only think about yourself and yourseld then yourself , then your family….
louie: someday i when im fully recovered i will just think about this and laugh about it
Focus Focus: no im not telling you jokes to laught about, im telling you truth from the life experince /,,,,
Focus Focus: im not making fun here, i know your situation and feel it deeply as you did, and I give you my advise, you take it or, make it as a laugh ,,,, its all up to u
louie: no i didnt mean laugh at what u said
louie: i mean laugh at what imgoing through now
Focus Focus: ok, i hope you believe what im telling u,
louie: yeah at the back of my mind i knw i deserve better
Focus Focus: oh …. girl….. you are so goegeous and you really deserve to be a queen.. you just didnot meet the person who can evaluate you yet, so its not your fault..
louie: its just a bit lonesome
Focus Focus: you should be proud of yourself….. that is it. even you live alone the rest of your life,
Focus Focus: the same thing happen to me, and im still alone, never wanted to be involved again after what she did,
louie: hmm
Focus Focus: but im sure one day, as long as im proud of myself, the right girl will come and insist to be with me,
louie: maybe she will come back
Focus Focus: NO never again, if she comes back, i will turn her down….
louie: u still sound bitter
Focus Focus: listen, i just hate this, she left for no reason,,,,,,,,,,,,,
Focus Focus: immigration to USA is not the best thing, but she left everythig behind and she is now living her dream, so let it be, but she will never get this love again…. she also regret it,
Focus Focus: listen girl… as long as you did not made any mistake, so you never feel guilty, ok ? agree…
louie: yeah
Focus Focus: so think always from this point and you will be feeling happy even if you are alone,
Focus Focus: believe me………. one day the right man will come and see how you are proud of yourself, and he will insist to be with you forever….
louie: ok
Focus Focus: but the men who will see u proud and nosey, they will never try with you bcz they know , they will not go anywhere with,
Focus Focus: but one man only will insist and try his best to win you, so this will be your man….
Focus Focus: i hope you got my point..
louie: yeah
Focus Focus: i hope what i say, make things better for u, and make u understand this stupid world of men,
Focus Focus: Im sorry to say that, im a man, but im telling u how they think
louie: i know i got ur point
Focus Focus: good……………..
Focus Focus: i want to be proud of you throughing all this behind ur back…
louie:
louie: im getting there
louie: this is place is exceptionally weird
Focus Focus: yes,
Focus Focus: do you feel better now ?
louie: yeah i stopped crying now
Focus Focus: its very very rear to find a man who tells u this, but im honest with you about how men thinking…
Focus Focus: they are ass holes………………… im sorry im a man too,
Focus Focus: but as a girl you shoud know it, bcz i want you to be aware of it…………
Focus Focus: the man who really admire a girl will be after her and insisnt on her,
Focus Focus: but the man who gave up this quickly , you never look at him
Focus Focus: im not against him personally, i just tell u generally,,,,
louie: yeah bur ur right
Focus Focus: im telling u this bcz you are so kind, so im immagine how kind you been to your lover no matter who, so if your lover easily lost you, so you better not think of him, i know its difficult, but you take it this way.. you heart yourself better than someone hurts you. that is it
Focus Focus: ? ok ?
louie: i know i did my best
Focus Focus: do you hear me, its heart to heart talk….
Focus Focus: im not trying to tell you what to do, but im just telling you the life experince and you are free to decide,
Focus Focus: i know you did your best i knew it, bcz i knew you for couple of weeks and i know you,
Focus Focus: im not trying to turn you against him or anyone, but you really deserve better,…… Spanish Girl
louie: hey wrong girl
louie: im filipina
louie: u stillb think about her
Focus Focus: what is wrong with filipina ?
louie: not spanish
Focus Focus: yes only from that bad experince she left, so that makes me feel not guilty and i feel she did a big mistake,
louie: hmm, yeah right
louie: who knows what the future brings
Focus Focus: i think about her from the dark point only
Focus Focus: so that makes me feel better,
louie: you obviously have a mind that rules out with urheart better than me
Focus Focus: you know , when u feel someone hurt you with no reason, so u will never forgive or like it anymore
louie: so u dont forgive?
Focus Focus: i do forgive when it was not meant to be
Focus Focus: i mean when it was not intentially done on purpose,
louie: hmm
Focus Focus: but when someone do sometning in puspose, this is not forgiven….
Focus Focus: u know what imean,
louie: so if i shut myself up and just give up on him
louie: i did it on purpose?
Focus Focus: she was plannig all this years to move to usa, but she never told me, and all of a sudden she said im off to USA next month, so what u expect me to accept it ?
louie: really
Focus Focus: NO, bcz he also did that to u,
Focus Focus: listen girl, did u really try with him , ?
Focus Focus: i mean .
louie: what
Focus Focus: did u try to make things better ?
louie: what i did i forgive the friend and became a friend
louie: all the time ihavent forgiven theboyfriend
Focus Focus: listen we are not talking about friendship here, we talk about lovers………..
louie: what
Focus Focus: ?
louie: what make it better
Focus Focus: i mean did u try to make the relation better than it is for few months ?
louie: noting was better
Focus Focus: but did u try or not ?
louie: try? i kept on with this one sided relationship for more than one year
louie: when we have problems idotntalk to him for a week
Focus Focus: so you are did ur part, so that is it,
louie: he knows that so he doesnt talk too and wait for me to get better
louie: but thsi time i did not get better
Focus Focus: so , dont turn back at it again, go on with ur life even alone
louie: and i never get better
louie: so we stopped and he didnot make any attwempts to talk
Focus Focus: he is not good to deal with that bcz he also should try to make u feel better
louie: so u see the best he let me go and not talk to me
louie: the better, it will help me
Focus Focus: he is not only suppose to wait for you to get better, he is the number 1 responsible to make u feel better even with one magic word
louie: arab
louie: he is an arab -
louie: he will never do anything for a woman
Focus Focus: so what ? arab filipino, no difference, its a matter of man and woman relation., for god sake
louie: so u see i try to get into arelationship with a stone
louie: u dont understand
louie: the arab pride against himslef
Focus Focus: u can not have relationship with a stone, so u better find something with life in it, even a cat will dooooooooo better than a stone
louie: women have no place in their system
louie: so just imagine their pride
Focus Focus: i know, so u know now, so never again to pick an arab, that is it, the life teaches us., right ?
louie: ok
Focus Focus: good girl,
Focus Focus: u make me proud of u now
louie:
Focus Focus:
Focus Focus: here is a hug and a kiss for u
louie: i need that ill take it
Focus Focus: ok
Focus Focus: u can have a bigger hug and longer kiss if u want
louie: i can sleep with that hug too
Focus Focus: sure, u want it all night hug…….
louie: yeah
Focus Focus: so u can sleep tonight ?
louie: yeah i feel like sleepy
Focus Focus: sure, plz go to bed now and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep
louie: really i feel better
Focus Focus: relax as long as u can, even if that cost u a day at work, but it will make u feel better for the days after that
Focus Focus: im gratefull u feel better ?
louie: yeah i do
Focus Focus has signed back in. (06/01/2009 00:29)
louie: i know i got ur point
Focus Focus: good……………..
Focus Focus: i want to be proud of you throughing all this behind ur back…
louie:
louie: im getting there
louie: this is place is exceptionally weird
Focus Focus: yes,
Focus Focus: do you feel better now ?
louie: yeah i stopped crying now
Focus Focus: its very very rear to find a man who tells u this, but im honest with you about how men thinking…
Focus Focus: they are ass holes………………… im sorry im a man too,
Focus Focus: but as a girl you shoud know it, bcz i want you to be aware of it…………
Focus Focus: the man who really admire a girl will be after her and insisnt on her,
Focus Focus: but the man who gave up this quickly , you never look at him
Focus Focus: im not against him personally, i just tell u generally,,,,
louie: yeah bur ur right
Focus Focus: im telling u this bcz you are so kind, so im immagine how kind you been to your lover no matter who, so if your lover easily lost you, so you better not think of him, i know its difficult, but you take it this way.. you heart yourself better than someone hurts you. that is it
Focus Focus: ? ok ?
louie: i know i did my best
Focus Focus: do you hear me, its heart to heart talk….
Focus Focus: im not trying to tell you what to do, but im just telling you the life experince and you are free to decide,
Focus Focus: i know you did your best i knew it, bcz i knew you for couple of weeks and i know you,
Focus Focus: im not trying to turn you against him or anyone, but you really deserve better,…… Spanish Girl
louie: hey wrong girl
louie: im filipina
louie: u stillb think about her
Focus Focus: what is wrong with filipina ?
louie: not spanish
Focus Focus: yes only from that bad experince she left, so that makes me feel not guilty and i feel she did a big mistake,
louie: hmm, yeah right
louie: who knows what the future brings
Focus Focus: i think about her from the dark point only
Focus Focus: so that makes me feel better,
louie: you obviously have a mind that rules out with urheart better than me
Focus Focus: you know , when u feel someone hurt you with no reason, so u will never forgive or like it anymore
louie: so u dont forgive?
Focus Focus: i do forgive when it was not meant to be
Focus Focus: i mean when it was not intentially done on purpose,
louie: hmm
Focus Focus: but when someone do sometning in puspose, this is not forgiven….
Focus Focus: u know what imean,
louie: so if i shut myself up and just give up on him
louie: i did it on purpose?
Focus Focus: she was plannig all this years to move to usa, but she never told me, and all of a sudden she said im off to USA next month, so what u expect me to accept it ?
louie: really
Focus Focus: NO, bcz he also did that to u,
Focus Focus: listen girl, did u really try with him , ?
Focus Focus: i mean .
louie: what
Focus Focus: did u try to make things better ?
louie: what i did i forgive the friend and became a friend
louie: all the time ihavent forgiven theboyfriend
Focus Focus: listen we are not talking about friendship here, we talk about lovers………..
louie: what
Focus Focus: ?
louie: what make it better
Focus Focus: i mean did u try to make the relation better than it is for few months ?
louie: noting was better
Focus Focus: but did u try or not ?
louie: try? i kept on with this one sided relationship for more than one year
louie: when we have problems idotntalk to him for a week
Focus Focus: so you are did ur part, so that is it,
louie: he knows that so he doesnt talk too and wait for me to get better
louie: but thsi time i did not get better
Focus Focus: so , dont turn back at it again, go on with ur life even alone
louie: and i never get better
louie: so we stopped and he didnot make any attwempts to talk
Focus Focus: he is not good to deal with that bcz he also should try to make u feel better
louie: so u see the best he let me go and not talk to me
louie: the better, it will help me
Focus Focus: he is not only suppose to wait for you to get better, he is the number 1 responsible to make u feel better even with one magic word
louie: arab
louie: he is an arab -
louie: he will never do anything for a woman
Focus Focus: so what ? arab filipino, no difference, its a matter of man and woman relation., for god sake
louie: so u see i try to get into arelationship with a stone
louie: u dont understand
louie: the arab pride against himslef
Focus Focus: u can not have relationship with a stone, so u better find something with life in it, even a cat will dooooooooo better than a stone
louie: women have no place in their system
louie: so just imagine their pride
Focus Focus: i know, so u know now, so never again to pick an arab, that is it, the life teaches us., right ?
louie: ok
Focus Focus: good girl,
Focus Focus: u make me proud of u now
louie:
Focus Focus:
Focus Focus: here is a hug and a kiss for u
louie: i need that ill take it
Focus Focus: ok
Focus Focus: u can have a bigger hug and longer kiss if u want
louie: i can sleep with that hug too
Focus Focus: sure, u want it all night hug…….
louie: yeah
Focus Focus: so u can sleep tonight ?
louie: yeah i feel like sleepy
Focus Focus: sure, plz go to bed now and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep
louie: really i feel better
Focus Focus: relax as long as u can, even if that cost u a day at work, but it will make u feel better for the days after that
Focus Focus: im gratefull u feel better ?
louie: yeah i do
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Focus Focus: hehehe, u palyfull now ?
Focus Focus: im happy when u feel happy….
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